Title: Paradigm Shift
Author: Harper Kingsley
Genre: mm sci-fi
Park didn't mention it at all. He didn't act awkward or strange. it was as though nothing had happened.
Gregor couldn't explain why he felt almost disappointed. From terrified of the consequences of his out-of-control libido to discomfited that there were none.
He didn't know what he wanted, but he wanted something.
Instead life went on as it had been. Except there was a near constant ache in his groin, a formless desire that grew with every passing hour. He couldn't seem to stay still and when he sat he squeezed his legs tight together, barely able to hide his shudders.
He'd never felt like this before. So raw and wanting.
He hated the loss of control, but in the moment, when he was pressing against his fingers and writhing against the bedsheets... The orgasms were amazing. Some of the best he'd ever had. And that set his body to craving because he knew that there was more to feel, to experience, a final culmination that would completely blow his mind.
And leave you with a baby. He winced away from the thought. He wasn't ready for that. Didn't want it when he could keep his mind focused and clear. Never mind that his body craved. His arms felt empty for a comforting weight and he wanted with a foreign desperation.
Gregor had never imagined that hormones could be so overwhelming, so insidious. He was having a hard time telling which desires were simply biology overwhelming his commonsense.
It frightened him to be so out of control.
And it was getting worse.
Minute by minute. Hour by hour. He could feel his self-control slipping from his grasp and there was nothing he could do to stop it. His body was betraying him.
The fact that Zero was sticking so close didn't make him feel any better. The thought that everyone was just waiting for him to succumb to the Madness so he could be bred like some kind of animal--it grated on his nerves.
Seeing Zero's face made him feel trapped and nervous. He was slipping and soon he wouldn't even belong to himself anymore. He would be Bound for five years, and he didn't have a single doubt that Zero would do his best to turn the five years into forever.
Maybe he was treating Zero unfairly. Maybe he should do his best to give the man an honest chance. Except every time Zero drew too close, Gregor's instincts screamed at him to escape.